It's my new life beginning....
Date: Saturday, April 12, 2008
Okie... shall start from the time when me and dar keep having argument and i have come to noe that all the problems start from ME...
I have been living in the past for the past 2 years... i can't forget her...Whenever i got problems, i will think of her, whenever i see gal smoke i will think of her, whenever i see 2 friends holding hands walking in the street i will think of her, whenever i go to her place nearby, i will think of her, whenever i touch the ring which is on my neck, i will think of her. So so so... whatever i do or see i will think of her... I simply do not noe that will hurt the love ones beside me when e image of her is in my mind... i simply feel so so so upset... which make me think that if i die one day, there is someone who deeply in love with me will feel as upset as wat i am feeling now... Which i dun wan to see... tat's y i say i hurt someone that i love and loves me...
So now i have come to a great decision... i decided to bury her in my heart... i removed the ring on my neck, i removed the picture of hers in my wallet... i wish her well and hope she is fine in the other world... Gal... i am going to bury u deep inside my heart le... goodbye....
Lastly, i wan to say sorry to my close friends and my dearest dar... Especially my dar... i hurt him the most... really sorry for my close friends, i am sorry that i dun dare to be close to anyone of you cos i am afraid of losing... but now rest assure, i will treasure anything and everything... Now that i noe, i will try my best to start a new life... stop dwelling on the past... Life is so beautiful after you have seen through alot of things. Smile always!!!
Signing Off~